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  1. I'm sorry you are going through such a shitty time. Your strength is admirable. You are doing the right thing by believing in yourself. Be in the now. Feel what you need to feel. It's not going to be easy, but then let it go. There is a light even if you cannot see it right now.

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  2. This is just terrible. Sending you lots of hugs.

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  3. Sending you lots of good wishes.

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  4. My heart is breaking for you. John is absolutely right. You have been through the grief process before, you know you need to go through the gamet of emotions, there are no short cuts, no easy way out, but out of it you WILL come. You've done it before, you can do it again. I know the situations are completely different, but the process is the same.
    You do what you need to do to find yourself again. You have the inner strength to get through this. Baby steps first.
    Remember You are in charge of your life, your happiness. Use some of your closest friends to lean on for a while. Don't close yourself off to them. Let some of them in. You need a support network around you. Xx

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  5. Thanks. And yes, I have reached out and asked a friend if I can stay at her place tonight. Last night, on my own, was the most horrific night of my life. I didn't realise those gut wrenching noises could ever actually come from me. I ended up coming home from work today, and working from my lounge so i could cuddle my cats. A couple of people at work have applauded my action and tell me I am better off without my husband. That did not help. In fact, it makes me want to leave my job if I have to face these people who can be so insensitive. Im searching for the silver lining, and I know it will eventually surface.

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  6. Perhaps you need to say to those people at work that at this time, you would prefer not to hear bad things about your husband. He has his ideas, thoughts and opinions of his future and just because they clash with mine doesn't make him a bad person. Be polite, if they can't take a hint try and push the point that you don't want to hear it.
    Don't make any rash decisions at the moment, it is all knee jerk reactions. I' so pleased you have finally opened up to someone. Lean on them, let them look after you.
    And yes, the silver lining will shine through eventually.

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