So this morning, the only symptoms I've had were sore BBs (still), bleeding/swollen gums when I cleaned my teeth and the cramping. I was feeling super energetic until about 2pm, and then everything changed, when I became extremely tired and began feeling pretty rotten. It's now 5pm, and I've come home from work and got straight into my pyjamas because I just feel yuck. It's kind of nausea, but also a kind of dizzy feeling, and I'm burping non-stop. Anyway, it's not very pleasant and i'm glad to be home and comfy on the couch.
I'm VERY nervous about tomorrow! But I'm totally at ease with waiting for the results on the phone. For some reason, I just can't bear to see another BFN on a home pregnancy test. This is obviously our first attempt at IVF, and I'm pretty inexperienced with all of the hormones and symptoms that I've been having, but I think because the stakes are so much higher with IVF, it becomes way more intense when the results are imminent.
I haven't let myself think beyond tomorrow's BETA results. Chop and I have planned a night out together tomorrow to celebrate the end of a little chapter (our first IVF). It's been such a roller-coaster of the past 2 months, with Chop's mother dying and then us going straight into our IVF cycle as soon as we got home from Perth, so we feel it's important to go out and begin planning the future again. My mind has been so pre-occupied with taking every day as it comes throughout this cycle, that I haven't even been able to think beyond "result day". It's Chop's birthday in 2 weeks and I haven't planned anything for him yet! After I get those results tomorrow, I can hopefully free my mind to actually function in a normal reality involving other humans.
I've got my game face on and am totally ready to meet our fate with this cycle tomorrow!
Full Summary of this IVF/ICSI cycle can be found on the above Tab: IVF#1
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