I returned home this afternoon to find a bill from my IVF clinic for storage of our frozen embryo from January until June 2013. Our single lonely embryo needs it's rent paid. I felt very strange when I saw what was in this envelope, as though it was just another way to squeeze more money out of us. I think I got annoyed because the Doctors name was on the bill, and this is a man whom I only met a couple of times, and neither of those were during my embryo transfers! Chop and I have this little joke between us about how much money we paid that Doctor who didn't seem to physically have anything to do with our current pregnancy. Of course that can't be true because he was the one who decided what medication I'd be put on... but that seemed to be about it. Anyway, his name is on the bill for our frozen embryo storage, and we'll just have to pay it.
It's a weird feeling to see a bill for something that has the ability to become a someone. There's always that little voice that tells me that we've only managed to get pregnant so far, there's still a long way to go before we can confirm that we'll be successful with our FET. We aimed to get a baby, not just to get pregnant from IVF. So we'll definitely be paying the rent for our last remaining embryo, until such a time as we're in a position to make a decision on what we'll do with it.... and who knows when that will be!
On another note, I'll be 18 weeks tomorrow! This trimester is really flying, and it's only 2 more weeks until we can find out the gender. If you haven't already, please take a second to answer my poll at the top right of the blog and have a guess on whether it's a boy or a girl. I get a little buzz out of seeing the scores change, and so far it seems that guesses for a girl are outweighing the boys. I have absolutely NO idea what it will be, not even a strange feeling, or a wacky dream that hints in either direction. I only know a few Mums who've had babies in the past few years, and all of them have been boys so it'd be nice to be different and have a little girl, but then again there's always the benefit of getting hand-me-down clothes from my friends' boys!
I've still been feeling the bubbly popping in my belly. I usually only notice it when I get into bed at night because I'm still and not distracted by other stuff. My uterus seems to be rising up a bit higher as its sticking out below my belly button more now. I've been needing to get up 2 or 3 times during the night to stagger off to the bathroom, which is pretty annoying as it breaks up my sleep. Actually, the past 3 nights I've had dreams about my mother. Next month it'll be 10 years since she died, and I only ever seem to dream about her when I'm quite stressed (I always thought this was her way of reassuring me that things will be ok). But I'm not stressed at the moment (other than being a bit worried about money), so it's been very strange to see my Mum in these dreams. I'll just have to put this down to a weird pregnancy thing, as I'm about to become a Mum too...
It's a weird feeling to see a bill for something that has the ability to become a someone. There's always that little voice that tells me that we've only managed to get pregnant so far, there's still a long way to go before we can confirm that we'll be successful with our FET. We aimed to get a baby, not just to get pregnant from IVF. So we'll definitely be paying the rent for our last remaining embryo, until such a time as we're in a position to make a decision on what we'll do with it.... and who knows when that will be!
On another note, I'll be 18 weeks tomorrow! This trimester is really flying, and it's only 2 more weeks until we can find out the gender. If you haven't already, please take a second to answer my poll at the top right of the blog and have a guess on whether it's a boy or a girl. I get a little buzz out of seeing the scores change, and so far it seems that guesses for a girl are outweighing the boys. I have absolutely NO idea what it will be, not even a strange feeling, or a wacky dream that hints in either direction. I only know a few Mums who've had babies in the past few years, and all of them have been boys so it'd be nice to be different and have a little girl, but then again there's always the benefit of getting hand-me-down clothes from my friends' boys!
I've still been feeling the bubbly popping in my belly. I usually only notice it when I get into bed at night because I'm still and not distracted by other stuff. My uterus seems to be rising up a bit higher as its sticking out below my belly button more now. I've been needing to get up 2 or 3 times during the night to stagger off to the bathroom, which is pretty annoying as it breaks up my sleep. Actually, the past 3 nights I've had dreams about my mother. Next month it'll be 10 years since she died, and I only ever seem to dream about her when I'm quite stressed (I always thought this was her way of reassuring me that things will be ok). But I'm not stressed at the moment (other than being a bit worried about money), so it's been very strange to see my Mum in these dreams. I'll just have to put this down to a weird pregnancy thing, as I'm about to become a Mum too...
My second tri flew until I hit 20 weeks... now I feel like I've been here forever. :P
ReplyDeleteWe should be getting a bill for our two lonely frosties soon, too. Just think of it as day-care for your embabies!
Brandon and I felt Ellie kick at exactly 19 weeks! I voted and guessed girl only because everyone else that I know who is pregnant are also having girls (9 to be exact)!
ReplyDeleteMy second trimester has been breezing along. It seems like I'm always taking another belly picture or reading something new about how Ellie is developing. I hope it's flying by for you as well! =)
It is hard to believe that you are already 18 weeks pregnant. It seems like we struggle for such a long period of time with infertility and then the pregnancy part flys by!
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