1. I think motherhood is a dichotomy - its both the hardest thing one will do and yet its the most rewarding. I too never thought I would have children, until I hit about 38 yrs and suddenly my biological clock started ticking. As an SMC, its really hard with no other person to help out, but I know that she makes my life so much better in every way. When I look back to my childless years - sure I slept in and worked out and had a beautiful tidy home, but I was missing something. And now I have that something - her! So , yes its crazy and stressful and I wish I could eat a meal properly, or get 2 seconds to myself sometimes, but the alternative was not that great. Now the hugs, kisses and smiles make it all so worthwhile.